| Missing You Like Crazy |
[Dec. 19th, 2006|03:46 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  numb | ] |
Missing You Like Crazy
A girl is pulled out of English, only to realize what is finally happening. Something she knew as soon as she saw her walk in the classroom. A nightmare coming true. Something this girl thought wouldn't happen for another 50 years. The principal drives her home, because tears just fill this girls eyes. She sits in the livingroom quietly, waiting for someone to come pick her up, and take her to the hospital.
As the girl walks into the hospital, and up to the wing she needs to be in, she sees her father, and breaks down. She runs over to him and hugs him, while tears stream down her face. She sits down in a waiting room with the rest of her family.
The girl stands quietly in a hospital room, her aunt's arms wrapped around her. The girl is in tears, and can't believe what she must face now. She cries as she holds her sister's hand. The heart rate on the monitor is slowly going down, and as it approaches zero, everyone in the room just breaks. Nobody can believe what they are witnessing, something they didn't anticipate. At 7:26 the family says their final goodbye to their now dearly departed granddaughter, neice, daughter, and sister...
This family had so much hope, and that hope was crushed a year, and a week ago today. They day they found out that their first granddaughter, daughter, and eldest sister was going to die within a week from such a horrible thing.
This family? Mine.
The girl? Me
This is what I went through one year ago today, when my older sister passed away. I remember everything. Everything including the say we found out my siste rhad cancer. Nobody even had to tell me.
Cancer is a horrible thing, and I can't say that I have any faith at all in chemo, or radiation.
The sad thing is that the family my mom works for...they're going through the same thing.
Their ten year old son was just diagnosed with bone cancer. He was having really bad back problems, so they took him in for a catscan, and they found a tumour on his spine. They weren't going to try to remove it because there's a risk of possibly paralyzing him.
The last I heard they rushed him in for an emergency surgery to remove some of the tumour. He can't sleep because of this, and he's going to need plenty of rest because he's having double doses of chemo, ontop of radiation to get rid of the tumour.
This poor boy is only ten years old! Ten!
The really sad thing? The survival rate of this treatment for this caner is only 5 percent.
We live in a cruel, cruel world.
This is all so unfair. |
|
|
| hahaha |
[Jan. 31st, 2005|03:03 pm] |
Wow my exam was easy today, and it was easy on friday. I hope everyone does good on their exams. Hahaha i foundthis on gaia and it's on the back of a shirt my brother has so enjoy it lol
I AM CANADIAN
(clears Thoat)
(the canadian one is actually a commercial and is all true!)
Hey...
I'm not a lumberjack, or a fur trader...
and I don't live in an igloo, or eat blubber, or own a dogsled...
and I don't know Jimmy, Sally or Suzy from Canada,
although I'm certain they're really, really nice.
I have a Prime Minister, not a President.
I speak English & French, NOT American.
and I pronounce it 'ABOUT', NOT 'A BOOT'.
I can proudly sew my country's flag on my backpack.
I believe in peace keeping, NOT policing.
DIVERSITY, NOT assimilation,
AND THAT THE BEAVER IS A TRULY PROUD AND NOBLE ANIMAL.
A TOQUE IS A HAT, A CHESTERFIELD IS A COUCH,
AND IT IS PRONOUNCED 'ZED' NOT 'ZEE', 'ZED'!!!
CANADA IS THE SECOND LARGEST LANDMASS!
THE FIRST NATION OF HOCKEY! AND THE BEST PART OF NORTH AMERICA!
MY NAME IS JOE!! AND I AM CANADIAN!!!!!!!! |
|
|
| Crap |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|05:29 pm] |
|
Sorry I did it again I accidently put the last entry in twice AGAIN!!!! My bad lol. |
|
|
| YAY!!! |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|04:56 pm] |
|
I finally found a pic to put for display on this ****jumps for joy****. Today was cool. Alison came over today and left at about 4:00. We played final fantasy the whole time she was over except for the first 30 mins cuz we were standing infront of my shelf that has all of my books on it and were talking about various things not realizing that we were still standing and had been talking for about half an hour. Fun times. That's all to report right now lol. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 21st, 2004|01:51 pm] |
|
Right now I am at my grandparents house. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARK!! My grandpa is going to drive me to the party lol. Bree I hope you read this cause we have to get together this week like we were supposed to last night lol. I called but you didnt call back lol. Ya I went shopping my aunt, sister and my sisters friend Jackie on Monday. I bought a black skirt and two black tanktops with a powder pink colour on them. I actually bought a skirt and wore it yesterday. The store we went to was DEBS. It's an awesome store and everything is cheap or on sale. I think that highist prices for shirts was like 15.99 and that stuff was marked down to like 9.99. Well that's about it. I just thought that I would update. |
|
|
| (no subject) |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|12:42 pm] |
don't mind the two same entries down below.|
|
|
|
|
\ /
V |
|
|
| Just wanna vanish from the world |
[Jul. 16th, 2004|12:26 pm] |
|
Well, I haven't done anything with anybody since I got back. The only people I have done something with this summer is Bree and Jess. I'm not surprised that all I have done this summer is sit around my house and do nothing except play PS2 and swim, it's what I do all summer. Last year I did nothing with my friends at all. I just wonder why nobody ever calls me. I call them but when I do they are never home. My life sucks and half the time I just wish that I could wake up and it would all be a dream. Jessica is moving and she doesn't know where. Her stupid father sold their house and told Jess and her mom after he talked to the guy who was buying the house. She doesn't even know if she is going to be living in St. Catharines anymore. One more great thing happening to me and her. We have talked about the situation and I don't know what is going to be like for her because I have never had to move away from my friends. I almost had to last year and because of all the shity things that happened to me this year I wish I had moved away. The only thing good about my life this year was meeting my best friends who have helped me with everything. I have to stop running away from my problems. But they just keep building up until the point where there are too many and I feel like I am just gonna break down. |
|
|
| Back |
[Jul. 9th, 2004|05:13 pm] |
|
Vacation was pretty cool. We were next door to a cute guy and his cousin was just a little down from them. The cousin of the guy next door to us was named Jeff. I didn't talk to him lol, uh i didn't talk to n e one other then my parents and brother lol. Well the chipmunks were sooooooooooo cute. One kept coming to our door because we were feeding them peanuts lol. That's about it. I had a good time but the only thing I won't miss about Pinelands was the bed and the pillows. It's so good to be back to my soft bed and pillows lol. The only thing that sucked about leaving is that Pinelands is going to be torn down. So we won't be going back again. It's been there since 1904 and I don't know why they would want to tear it down. The pool was 88!!!! You could see smoke comong off of the water. |
|
|
| Awesome Song! |
[Jun. 25th, 2004|01:18 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  sore | ] |
Here is an awesome song that is from my Final Fantasy X-2 game. I LOVE IT!!!! Here are the lyrics for it:
1000 Words I know that you're hiding things
Using gentle words to shelter me
Your words were like a dream
But dreams could never fool me
Not that easily
I acted so distant then
Didn't say goodbye before you left
But I was listening
You'll fight your battles far from me
Far too easily
"Save your tears cause I'll come back"
I could hear that you whispered as you walked through that door
But still I swore
To hide the pain when I turn back the pages
Shouting might have been the answer
What if I'd cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart
But now I'm not afraid to say what's in my heart
Though a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
Crossing over the time and distance holding you
Suspended on silver wings
And a thousand words
One thousand confessions
Will cradle you
Making all of the pain you feel seem far away
They'll hold you forever
The dream isn't over yet
Though I often say I can't forget
I still relive that day
"You've been there with me all the way"
I still hear you say
"Wait for me I'll write you letters"
I could see how you stammered with your eyes to the floor
But still I swore to hide the doubt
When I turn back the pages
Anger might have been the answer
What if I'd hung my head and said that I couldn't wait
But now I'm strong enough to know it's not too late
Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll fly to you
Even though we can't see I know they're reaching you
Suspended on silver wings
Oh a thousand words
One thousand embraces
Will cradle you
Making all of your weary days seem far away
They'll hold you forever
Oh a thousand words
Have never been spoken
They'll fly to you
They'll carry you home and back into my arms
Suspended on silver wings ohhh
And a thousand words
Call out through the ages
They'll cradle you
Turning all of the lonely years to only days
They'll hold you forever |
|
|
| OWWWWW |
[Jun. 25th, 2004|12:59 pm] |
|
OWWWWW lol. Alright, here is the story behind the title lol. The other day, i went swimming in our pool (it ain't that deep but its cool), well i put suntan lotion on my back, IT DIDN'T WORK GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. So now my shoulders are really really red. The weird thing is that my left shoulder doesn't hurt, but my right shoulder hurts like hell. I tried putting lotion on it last night, I CAN"T EVEN DO THAT IT HURTS SO MUCH. My plan for the next few days is to stay out of the pool and sun and stay in, or go out and sit in the shade. |
|
|
| Cool |
[May. 29th, 2004|07:53 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  calm | ] |
Well I helped my dad put up some of the fence. Well i held the board in place while hemarked where it would have to be cut. Also I made a new gaia account. Twas cool. Thats about it cuz nothing much ever happens to me lol. |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
iris_dolly's journal